i guess i should have started posting earlier to distract myself.

post earlier during hols and stuff.

im seriously bored.

i just log on to the com.

and stone..



why am i even bothering to post?

am i trying to revive my blog or stm?

im not even sure what im trying to do.



these few days have been really really.

rough?



dispite people telling me not to be sad and such..

i dunno?

when they ask if im alright or stm,

i just reply yes i am.



i feel that that is not really my answer or stm.

im just saying it to make myself feel better.

i guess.

im really not alright.

i dunno.



the only time i feel alright is when im dreaming i guess..



ive been sleeping late cause ive always reached home late.

im not getting enough sleep.

and this is getting on my nerves.

really really getting on my nerves.

im throwing a emper at everything.



i just got scolded by my mother cause im not asleep when my cousins are alr asleep.

she told me, see. your early home for once and your not sleeping. blahblah. you complain the prev days cause your not home intime to sleep.. blahblah.

i mean. HELLO? i have to sleep right? if you want me to wake up at 5.. LET ME SLEEP AT 8 FOR GOODNESS SAKE!

wtf.

and today morn. wake me up at 5.. WHEN YOU SAID I COULD WAKE UP AT 8.

WTFWTFWTFWTF!



OK. WHATEVER MAN!

i want my joanne.